Por Miguel

This post is entirely dedicated to my dear friend and associate, Michael Nielsen. So Mike, if you end up being the only one reading this, I decided I don't wish to trouble you with the headache that has been my  life this week. So, here are some lists. Lists of things I enjoy, find comical, strange or are just plain random. Here we go.

Things That are Strange

·         Mukluks

·         Crawdads

·         Blobfish

·         The fact that Pluto isn’t considered a planet anymore

·         Feet

·         Politicians

·          Glue

·         Snooki

·         Facial piercings

·         Cannibalism

·         BOYS

·         Love

·         The fact that our ears never stop growing

·         Praying mantis’

VIDEOS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY! :D

Some of my Favorite Things
Paintings by Van Gough
Stars
California
Giggling
Hugs
Sunsets
Beaches
Campfires
Children's Books
Miracles
Orange Juice
Heights
Skipping
Chapstick
Frogs
Wind
The smell of a baby
Strawberries
Clue
Moonlit walks
Chopsticks
Cooking
Flowers! Lots and lots of flowers!
Hiking
Farmer's Markets
The twinkle found in the eyes of a stranger
Traveling
Forehead kisses
Antiques
Music Boxes

There you go, friends (or just Mikey) I hope you enjoyed that extremely random, short post! Have a wonderful night/ morning/day! Remember to count the blessings you have, embrace those you love, and seize the moments given to you. Until next time.

Secrets

So an adorable friend helped me realize the other night that I hardly write on this thing, and if I do, it essentially doesn't divulge the reality that is my life. I choose to tred the vague and whimsical road most oft, talking about nonsensical rubbish, ranting or sharing something, which is good, but it tells you practically nothing about where  in the world I happen to be living this week, my happenings, love interests (Yes, I give you permission to pause and laugh here) , new favorite ice cream, people who may or may not have punched me in the face and the books I may be reading. So, with that said,  I hereby raise my hand to the square and solemnly swear that I am up to no good and will divulge some more things, unless it alludes to any illegal activity. (We already know I'm not exactly on a 'good list' - and my prints are on file )

 Sometimes I wish I could instantly share with you all the pictures I've captured in my mind, the places I've been fortunate to travel, the warm featured faces, multicolored hands; We need an app for that. That's real social networking. I will try to live outside the box more- make more connections, do crazy things even though I feel like I don't have the time or friend base that I used to, take pictures,laugh, make a difference. 

I currently work full time (meaning all the time) at a therapeutic boarding school, which is really rewarding and difficult. I love my employers, the kids( most of the time) and the people I get to work with. I get to live with my amazing friend Abbs and her great family, and at the end of the month I get to go skydiving hopefully! I'm SOO EXCITED!!and to make it better, I get to go with two of my musketeers, so that should be amazing. 

Yes. This WILL be me.

 

Part of me feels like I may be going overboard, but let's face it. The past 6 months haven't exactly been the easiest months in the world, and I feel like if I don't do something for myself, I may be reduced to a pulsating, pink puddle. I'm working on maybe doing something about a fun vacation, but we'll see how things go. I'll keep you posted my friends! Keep it real, have fun, do something crazy, live life WELL. Adios!

Utterly Useless Post

Waaahahahahah :'( Not even Rusty the Narcoleptic dog could make me giggle! I'm so frustrated!!!! Why can't I just be happy for people!?

Therapy

So...after the ensuing weeks, I've decided that I need therapy. Lots and lots of therapy. So I put on the ginormous glasses, loose fitting pants and frock, poised with pen and pad in a overstuffed leather arm chair glowering at the brain sitting across from me, trying to conceive a possible plan on how to fix this impossible, glorious, frustrating oozing organ.  It seems sluggish, exhausted, pale, and snappish. Diagnosis?

"7 days of sun and fun, Take one cruise ship to a warm location, Repeat every 3 Months" As prescribed by a brilliant physician. :)

PLEASE! So, as prescribed by my personal therapist, I've decided to compile a list of places I'd love to vacation to, even if its just to dream, I believe it will be better for my overall decreasing mental health.

 1. San Diego, Disneyland- Just California in general. That's a helping dose of happiness. I need the beach in my life.

 2. Africa.

 3. Machu Picchu, Nazca Lines in Ica, Cuzco, Lima; Go on a South American Cruise and explore the amazon

4. Islands surrounding and including Greece, Italy, and the Mediterranean

 

5. Mt. Everest

6. India

7. England - for real, Ireland, Scotland, France, Germany etc.

8.  AUSTRALIA!!! and New Zeland

9. China 

10. Sky diving in Hawaii

11.The Moon- surf the milky way and be an astronaut and just get away from the world. 

  Its beautifully illustrated in this song by One Eskimo entitled "Astronauts" There are just a couple of ideas for now, but it has helped some. What are your dream vacations? Crazy aspirations? Thoughts? Therapy tricks slash advice? I'm always open to expanding my horizons. Or if you have some magic vacation already planned that you want to take me on, PLEASE HIT ME UP! Heaven knows I need one. Thank you readers for all your help and support! Keep it real!

Ramblings, Ramblings, and More Ramblings...

I remember there was once a time where I did, in fact, have a social life. It seems that nine months will have passed where teenaged kids have become an all encompassing part of my life. I work and sleep. Maybe watch a movie here and there, but mostly live every day in hopes of making a small difference in the lives of these teenagers I encounter on a daily basis. Maybe I'm learning more intimately about the law of sacrifice in a way. I can have a social life when I'm 80 haha.

So as I was driving home today, I just wanted to find my own place to gaze at the heavens, lay in my own field of dreams and thoughts and just sort them out, figure out my place in God's great plan.I felt so out of whack, so out of alignment- You just crave and seek solitude to figure that stuff out. I'm super excited for conference- maybe that will help bring some rest and peace to my restless heart.

One of my favorite paintings of all time - always makes me think.

so more random thoughts- the first clip is one of Adele's songs that I'm completely obsessed with and can relate extremely well to. The second is how I feel as of late because all my wingmen are disappearing! I'm tickled that they're so happy, but I just watch this clip and laugh because its so true!  Anyway, wishing you all the best.

Heather Heart 2.0, please?

I'm in a strange transitional period in my life. All I want is to contribute to society. I want to help and lift people, wipe away tears, see the world, learn things from others and from books, find answers and incorporate them into every day life. I want to feel the ocean breeze on my face again, to run along the beach, laugh with all my heart, love with all my heart and have fantastic adventures.  I want to feel like I am actually 21, not 49.  I feel as if my heart has been set in a cage, left to atrophy and decay; like a lonesome bird whose song has been quieted after years of trying to escape through cold, brass bars. I'm trying to weigh my options right now, to feel what it is that I am supposed to do with this period of my life and essentially my future. I have been blessed with many talents, people who love me and many roads. I just feel like I've kind of lost sight of who I am, and by default my desires have kind of flown out the window like wisps of smoke. Now I'm trying to re-collect them with a net with really big gaps in it. I guess that means that repair takes time, patience, trust- and initiative and courage to re-discover.  I'd like to write a book, maybe learn the guitar and try my hand at songwriting, become healthy- take down all my walls. I just don't know how or which direction to take. 

P.S.- I totally would like this in real life! So adorable!

Sometimes I wish my heart had a literal compass built in, so I'd know specifically which direction to start heading toward.  For instance, I was just offered a full time position working with youth doing something I love. I want to make sure that I am doing the right thing, not the easy thing; the best thing, not the good second option. But despite being lost, I want more than anything to feel free and happy. My dear friend who I had the honor and pleasure of serving for months is currently in the hospital on death's door.  She taught me many things, but despite everything, she's always seemed to maintain a level of happiness and fills everyone's life with sunshine and pure joy.  She's truly lived up to Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin's advice to "Come what may, and love it." I pray that during this time and in the future, I may take a leaf out of her book and appreciate this time given to me, to take risks and truly live. Until then, if you know how I could possibly hook up a sweet compass to my beating myocardium, letters, emails and informative journal articles would be greatly appreciated. Until next time, much love! 

Laughing Brook

I feel like my life can be alluded to a babbling brook, flowing down and through an old mountain. It twists and turns, flowing this way and that, over rugged rocks, smooth stones, sharp sticks and brambles- up, down, everywhere at once, constantly flowing, never stopping, never knowing which way the course intends it to flow- just trusting that the journey will be worth it. When it feels like I may finally flow into a pool or flow in a  direction I'd been waiting for for so long, I get sucked into an undercurrent that throws me completely for a loop.  But, its all apart of the process. Because of the unpredictability, brooks are beautiful, calming, and easy to relate to. During the portions of life where we feel like we get stuck in the eddies of the stream, we need to remember that we get to the bottom of the mountain eventually, leaving lush life behind us for others to profit from. So, we better make the most of this ride, I think. We only ride it once. Evaporation does not apply ( unless you belong in the city of Enoch or happen to be a very righteous prophet of old). Live it. Cherish it. Laugh. Cry. Love. Embrace all it has to offer. Be a laughing brook, despite everything. The ride is much more enjoyable that way.