That's Life

Sometimes, I feel like this. (its a link. click the word 'this', please) Why do we unnecessarily complicate things? Not only with extraneous things like mathematics, but every element of life. Why do people complicate things? Say things they don't mean? Why can't people just be honest? Why must we always shroud our true feelings? It infuriates me like nobody's business. Do you ever have those days where you feel like your stress level has reached critical mass, but the dam keeps overflowing and spilling on you, with no regard to the fact that you could literally burst and annihilate all the villagers in the gully below at any given time? yeah. That has been my entire week thus far. I've been wrestling with critical decisions, dealing but mostly not dealing with idiotic men, I feel like I don't know who my friends are anymore, family drama, financial problems, traumatic and critical medical situations with a mother figure and I feel like my arms are tied and there's nothing I can do, and then you throw in the typical "Kade, breathe and stop bludgeoning your brother, Drew don't throw THAT in the toilet, Drew you can't run outside naked!, Riley, Is THAT even necessary?, Candy is NOT a breakfast food, Wow Drew! what a great use of your creativity! But Let's eat the cheese balls, not make a mosaic on your mother's wall, ok? ' and i swear, if I have to say pee or poop one more time...this dang dam is going to break.

So if anyone knows me well, they know that I am my own therapist on call. I need to keep breathing, realize that this is life, and keep moving forward. But most importantly, I need to keep focused on my mission, keep studying, praying like crazy, and breathe some more. Clark, my best friend, is coming home in a few days, I'm getting mission pictures taken, I have the rest of the week off to regroup and maybe muster up some courage of my own, so all in all, it will be okay. Until then readers, here's hoping that my dam or yours doesn't break anytime soon. and I keep watching this awesome mormon messages video. Love it! Click and enjoy! Much love, readers! Ciao.

Road Trip(s)!

Many exciting things have happened since I wrote last. I went to California, played on the beach and soaked up some of the sun's rays, had a blast in Disneyland, went to Neverland on the Peter Pan ride, barely escaped the clutches ghastly ghosts, pesky pirates, snakes, broken haunted elevators, enraged natives, man eating piranhas, crowds, abominable snowmen, and of course, the temple of doom. Oh and careened off a huge raging waterfall into a brier patch several times. The perfect day in Disneyland ended with fireworks (my favorite), getting hit on, eating a massive cookie in pooh corner and catching a bus back to our hotel wetter than a drowned rats. All in all, it was epic.

The best part was going with Natalie and her adorable children. Her kids had never been to the fantastical, magical place. So seeing their reactions the whole time was absolutely wonderful. It made me reflect a lot about my future, things I wanted to do with my children, things I wanted them to experience, things I wanted to teach them. I am so excited for that day when I finally get to do those things with them, watch them experience the magic and wonder of childhood. And although my baby hunger was hardly ever satiated while waltzing all around strollerland for days on end, I knew that one day my time would come. Someday. But now is not that time. I have many things to learn and experience, relationships to foster, people to meet teach,and grow from, mountains of homework looming in the distance,hands to hold and lift, places to see and crazy things to experience. There's a pang in my heart not knowing when that day will finally arrive because the thought and prospect of a family of my very own keeps me going when I'm wading through the muck of the world. But it'll come. Plus I'm still a baby. 20? Come on! I've got a lot of life to live. Moving on.

So after just a few hours being home, I packed my bags again and headed through the beautiful canyons of Zion National Park to Clear Creek Ranch for a Youth For Freedom Conference. Little did I know that this week was going to essentially change my life. I was able to break through barriers that I've built and rebuilt over the years. I've never felt so light, so free, in my entire life. It was absolutely amazing and I'm so excited to return to all of my incredible friends in a few weeks.

...just found this. Figured I'd better post it. haha