Adrift, Wandering, Wayward, or in Layman's Terms...

lost:

 

[lawst, lost] adjective
1.no longer possessed or retained: lost friends.
2.no longer to be found: lost articles.
3.having gone astray or missed the way; bewildered as to place, direction, etc.: lost children.
4.not used to good purpose, as opportunities, time, or labor; wasted: a lost advantage.
5.being something that someone has failed to win: a lost prize.
6.ending in or attended with defeat: a lost battle.
7.destroyed or ruined: lost ships.
8.preoccupied; rapt: He seems lost in thought.
9.distracted; distraught; desperate; hopeless: the lost look of a man trapped and afraid.

Well folks, as beautifully illustrated by the definition and preceding images, one may infer that the overall theme of this post would be about me being "lost".  

In case you didn't quite understand from the illustrations depicted above.

 And sadly, succinctly describes the wrenching in my heart.   

Oh, and clearly the brilliance of the one and only Sara B. 

Like my present state, my mind seems to follow- just swimming in the swirling vortex of everything and nothing- bewildered, dizzy, tired. Senses dulled, my pulse a crawling dirge.  I'm just existing and longing for better things, in a state of perplexed  pretending, awaiting for my heroine half to emerge on fiery wings to liberate the captive so desperately looking for a way out... a yellow brick road... a sign from God.